ii am really soriey dear for whad happened just now .
ii really did not mean to lie to you .
and ii know that you might have given up on me now
and you might feel lyke letting me go .
it is up to you now because ii am ready to get whad ii deserve from you .
ii think that ii am really not that good and suitable for you .
ii know that ii had been a jerk all this while .
and ii know that ii had been making lots of mistakes .
but that does not mean that ii does not love you anymore .
maybe you were right about whad you said just now .
and jyeah ii really does not deserve to be appreciated .

why do people look down on failers ?
why must everyone do at least one mistake in it's life ?
why does friendship and relationship couldn't last long ?